OPERATION: MAKE YOURSELF

So, this is going to be a bit of a hard entry for me. I am about to challenge myself to embark on a journey that will (hopefully) change my life.

I have ALWAYS struggled with my weight. Always. I've been tormented by it my entire life. For the longest time I just blamed genetics, because it was "so hard" to lose weight. Well, that's not entirely the truth. I love food. I love it a lot, and it shows. I also love my body, and I want to be healthy. When I grocery shop, and cook meals for my family we def try to make it healthy. We don't eat lots of fatty foods, but our portions are what's doing us in.

I was so proud of the amount of weight I had lost when I got to Guam in July 2010. It wasn't long before the stress of Brad's deployments, and missing my family caught up to me and I started eating through it. I gained a total of 28 lbs in Guam. I have severe issues with my body, and always have. I've tried for years to just tell myself to "be comfortable in my own skin" and "love my body the way it is". That's true to a point, but if I'm unhappy with the number  I see on the scale, and the way I look everyday, I am going to change it. I want to feel beautiful, and be healthy at the same time. I want to wake up every morning and love myself the way I should! My husband gets frustrated with me sometimes, because he tries to make me see that he thinks I am beautiful, and that I don't need to change and I can't see it, but he also supports me in my decision to be fit & healthy. I am so blessed to have him in my life.

I have a goal to lose 31lbs to be where I want to be to feel HEALTHY and BEAUTIFUL.

So, this is OPERATION: MAKE YOURSELF. My goal is to make myself : feel beautiful, healthy, active, confident, and STRONG.
I will get over my fear of working out in public, and go to the gym.
I will hire a personal trainer.
I will eat smaller portions.
I will work for this EVERY DAY, because it means that much to me.


I will start this on January 5th, and continue indefinitely. On that day, I will post my current weight, and goal weight and continue to document my progress.
I need everyone's help to keep me accountable, so all the encouragement and help I can get it appreciated.

Thanks everyone!!

xo
Jordan